I have been cooking professionally for 15 years and I have hated it the whole time. Yet for some reason I keep doing it, becoming more depressed everyday. I could just quit and find a new job, but for some reason I haven’t.
The explanation I came up with is, it’s easy for me. Not to say cooking is easy. But I’ve done it for so long and its all I really know how to do, I’m used to the routine.
The fact that I’ve been doing something I hate for all these years makes me mad at myself.
